“The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.” –Marcus Aurelius
Originally, this blog was a place for me to share my feelings of happiness, vent my feelings of sadness, and rant about things that got on my nerve, whilst hopefully relating to my audience’s own experiences in life. It was a way for me to connect with the world without actually showing my face and avoiding experiencing a wave of social anxiety, and, through all the blog posts other people have posted, I feel as if I’ve gotten to know everyone better than if we were talking eye to eye. This is a safe, anonymous community, and it’s sort of a break from reality. That said, though, as I develop more people I care about and start to expand my social life, I feel as if I have one of my feet in the real world and another in the virtual, online one. I certainly didn’t expect, when I started this blog, for me to have grown as an individual. I started a timid, skittish person struggling to grow into themself, and I feel as if now I’ve grown stronger, and accepted all the multicolored sides that make up me. I don’t know all of the sides, of course, but does anyone? Which lead to the theme of this post.
A lot of things make up me (peskatarian, young, queer, blogger/writer, a sibling/friend/hopefully-someday-significant-other, a geek/fandom-lover, emo, caring, funny/sarcastic-in-some-scenarios, to name a few). Awhile ago, I realized not everyone knows as much about themselves as I do about myself. And, I know everyone says this, but it’s okay if you’re still figuring stuff out about yourself. Most people are still unlocking the many sides of themselves as adults. As multiple people have said, “Nobody else knows what they’re doing, either.” Everyone’s just figuring themselves out in this mystery we call life. (That might be a quote from somewhere; I have no idea.) But, to further explore who you are, start with what you do know. For example, your hobbies, your hopes and dreams for the future, whatever really. Finding out who you are and who you were meant to be in life will take time: most likely over the entire course of your lifespan. It’s not something that simply takes a day: it’s tedious. And learning more about others takes even longer.
Think about it this way. In English class, you may remember learning about characterization, which is the traits and features of a said character in a story. There is indirect characterization, and direct characterization. Direct is when a trait is stated about a character upfront, while indirect is when you have to infer characteristics from something the character said and does. When learning more about others and yourself, you’ll probably be using indirect characterization. Think about your life as a book, and all your friends and family members are characters. The book revolves around you, and every page, every day, is an opportunity to learn more about yourself.
As much as you think you may know about who you are, where you stand on certain topics, who you care for, etc, if my emotional journey on this blog has taught you anything, it’s that there’s so many beautiful pieces that make up an individual. Go out into the less-than-perfect world and take a chance; dare to be yourself. Dare to follow your heart, your dreams, your aspirations in this puzzle we can life. By doing that, you may inspire others to search and complete their own destinies, and the world may become a better place for all. Whatever family you were born into, whatever race, gender, or sexuality, religion, etc, you are irreplaceable. You (yes, you) matter. Go out into the world, be good, and be yourself. Spread happiness, love, and life, not sadness, despair, and misery.
I hope this post inspired some of you. I hope you feel empowered to do good, and I hope you share this message with others. In the meantime, I’m going to go and eat breakfast. Peace out, internet!